It's something I don't like because it kind of pisses me off. But I choose not to tell, for a simple reason. Because you're my friend.

I wish I could throw everything and delete everything. I know it's an childish act but if it works by tearing away everything and deleting it, perhaps it would be worth it. It'll be too late to regret and leave no path back.

I find myself very difficult to be satisfied lately. Being in terms of appetite, and perhaps most importantly emotionally.






Ps: I don't feel safe. Don't feel safe with you. =(

Your mind tell you this, but your heart tells you that. Which should you listen to?

老实说压抑自己的情绪并不是一件容易的事。我是很想说出口， 但就是没那个勇气。有时候， 所谓对的事，做起来并不是对的。往往都要顾虑到别人的感受。真的很累。一想就让我心烦意躁。 我不知道自己还能撑多久。心情难免有一点承重。=（

I ask myself a question today, why do I hardly talk about myself ? The best answer I can find is probably the sense of security. When I can't sense nor feel it, it's either I don't talk about it or just avoiding it. And I don't like losing that feeling, because it means you once had it and you could no longer have it.


Ah, just when I wanted to blog so much, I look at the clock and it says I should be heading to lala land. =(